I am a recluse in troubled times. I guess I just don't want anyone to think of me as weak or uncertain of life's answers. Hence, I have not blogged in a while because everything has been spinning and seems to be trying to unhinge me.

Iz and I are still trying to figure out where we are. It seems we are not any closer to an answer than we were 3 months ago. I want a lasting commitment, he says if I want marriage, find someone else. This should be my sign, but I just have this feeling in the pit of my soul that leaving him is not the answer. But dang it, I want to be married! Why is it that everything else with us works so well, but the one thing that doesn't is HUGE. It's a daily struggle with me to not be a nag about this. I'm so afraid that one day I am going to wake up and say that's enough. I don't know why I am afraid, it's what everyone says I should do. It's just that I really do love him. I don't want to imagine life without him, but I guess sometimes you have to face reality. He would rather me find someone else than marry me himself, so...Ha! there ya go.

Two weeks ago, I ended up with a toothpick jammed into my big toe. My cheap butt thought I would wait it out and hope the piece that broke off inside would work it's way out. That was Saturday night. I also didn't want to pay for a trip to the emergency room. By Monday morning, I was in so much pain it was making me sick to my stomach. I called the doctor. As it turned out, it was so far in there, I had to have surgery at the hospital to get it out. They said it was right against my bone and would have caused an infection in the bone had I not removed it. So...5 stitches and $1500 later, I am toothpick free and my toe is starting to heal up. If I never see another toothpick in my life it won't be long enough!

Tyler punched a boy at school in the stomach on Friday in the locker room while I was out of town. Apparently, this boy had been teasing him for a while and Tyler had had enough. Needless to say, Tyler got 3 days ISS, the boys got 1 day after school detention for cussing. I am not in any way condoning Tyler's actions, but I can see where he was coming from. Kids can just be so cruel.

My cousin, Brandie, passed away last Wednesday from complications due to injuries sustained in a car accident the prior Sunday. Her funeral is in Llano on Friday. She was only 32 years old. She was unmarried and had no children. It really made me think about how quickly life can change. I want to live every day to the fullest. I truly want to be happy and ready to go when it is my time to be called.

We are still working on locations for a new store this next year. I will be a partner in this one. It is very exciting. I have learned so much in the past three years from the Fredericksburg store. I am confident in my ability to take on another one.

It is raining pretty hard here right now. We have limbs scattered all over the yard outside. One of the disadvantages to having so many trees around the house. I sure do love the shade they provide in the summer tho.

Well, I have some work to catch up on so that's all for now. Goodnight!